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Whoever meets God shall be put to death. Let not God speak lest we die . Break through unto the Lord to gaze and perish. But fear not and be glad, for the Lord has come to prove you, so that His fear be before your faces, that ye sin not. We have met the enemy and he is us. The Lord is a man of war, the Lord is His name. He will be the enemy of our enemy.

posted by Graciana@Home at 7:03 am

"I've longed a long, long time for a guide, a teacher, a mentor. Yet it seems things are destined to be different and time is slipping away. I must learn not from the pronouncements of a teacher, but from the events and circumstances and the lives of many around me. I've always said it would be so nice, so comfortable, to have someone tell me what's right and wrong, where to venture and what to avoid. Of course it is true that I am rather strict in whom I would trust deeply enough, to trust myself and my life on his/her judgement. It would take someone well versed, well travelled and well experienced in all the ups and downs of many walks of life. It would take someone with a good heart as well as a good head. It would take a Christian who's overcome prejudice implanted during childhood, the petty pride of youth and the irrascible irritability and cynicism of adulthood. It would take someone perfect in manners and substance. It would take someone who, I fear, does not exist.

That kind of standard is exacting, but I believe it is the standard everyone should adopt. Not so that we all stop learning from those around us. To the contrary, it is so that we start learning from everyone around us. Emulate the good and help to alleviate the bad in the brothers/sisters we see around us. Even persons in seemingly most humble of circumstances will have something good to impart.

By that only God is exalted and no person or leader becomes anything more than a servant. "

-L.R

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Secularize everything. No great man can come out from such a thing. No great movement can spring up of such a thing.

posted by Graciana@Home at 7:05 am

Sometimes I would prefer people who are glumly uncommunicative rather than one who spills his guts at the drop of a hat. And to push me to express something presumes that I do have something submerged. Maybe there really is. But it has to remain submerged, the airing of it often violates its authenticity. Something in me is rebelling against being trespassed, or being turned too quickly, or too less of the moment.

posted by Graciana@Home at 6:59 pm

What I enjoyed most about my conversations with I was that they hardly existed. =P More than several we spent time together at others' presence. To them we spoke a plenty, with each other we said little. I imagined it was wordless understanding? It functioned fairly well to me. =P Another short msg to each other a minute ago, and I realised what I wrote was what remained submerged and not allowed to be aired to others. He asked if he was extreme. It was obvious people no more think of right and wrong, or true and false. And visit to K***nite confirmed it, how many people at present do openly walk on the contrary of God, considering it as contemporary, or even stark courageous. Man walks wrong naturally. If there wasn't a radical turn, it was not a turning at all. This I must continue to remind myself. I told him not to be scared to speak to the conscience of every man he meets. Terrified by my own comment. >.<

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I rather be a heathen than be a Christian without the knowledge of God. I need God to let me find Him. I know His existence needs no confirmation. But I do. I believe, but this belief is without deep conviction in my heart. To stop being pale, poor, needy, undecisive Christian. Going in a church, then going out again. Reading a chapter, without knowing what is in it, having no sense of God’s presence at all. I know He is there, everywhere. Here. Not confused with anything other than GOD, I need to be aware of HIM. I want to meet HIM. Have you ever met GOD at all? O how could have I died for it. If I must die for it, I will.

Just a little of His felt presence. The faintest and the most mitigated degree of it would certainly make conquest over temptation easy and self-denial willing. CS Lewis was apt in saying this.

posted by Graciana@Home at 4:24 am

"Do you think life within the church is better than life outside of it without God? I personally would think living in the church system and you don't have God must be one of the worst possible circumstance." L.R

Meanwhile, this (http://reposeinthee.blogspot.com/2006/08/rethinking-competition.html) was helpful.

posted by Graciana@Home at 3:57 am

Is wishing that this or that of others' nature/qualities/abilities were mine wrong? Perhaps it is not a sense of being different only, but also a fear and half-belief that I am worthless and undesirable. There is a constant expectation that others always find others more appealing. Then everybody becomes more appealing, on this view. =P Does it help when one knows oneself? and thus what is not self, and beyond self? I think it keeps one's aspirations within the realm of sensible, does it not? To prevent one from placing too great an importance on the unobtainable through simple ignorance of its being unobtainable. And thus learn to be content and responsible of one's portion? To ask for more than is given is simply non-sensical.

"We compete with our rivals in some contest, with our rivals in love - in a word, with those who seek the same thing as we seek, so these persons above all must be the ones whom we envy. And hence the saying: And potter against potter."
(Aristotle)

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