One constantly meets the view that, because we are born into a world of contradictions we must defer to it. Yet people shouldn't be ambivalent about themselves just because everything else is. This doesn't mean I would range myself on the side of those who are single-hearted in the true sense. Scarcely an hour passes without one of my thoughts and heart responses flying off, wandering at a tangent. And very few of my actions correspond to what I consider right. I am so often scared of those actions, which loom over me like dark mountains, that then all I want to do is to cease to exist. Please don't think I am good, that is all I ask, because I am bad.

posted by Graciana@Home at 6:31 pm